I have the unique ability to procrastinate…
So I haven’t updated my web page in ages… do you really care? Do you really care?
Hey… 5 bucks to the person who can name the song that contains the line “Do you really care? Do you really care?”
(Another five bucks if you didn’t use google). *payable in monopoly money only. CANADIAN monopoly money.
Look, life is … problematic. We all know this. Things don’t always go …according to plan. Sometimes, this can bring me down. At the end of the day though, we have one life to live whether there is an afterlife or not.
I am in no rush to find out, let me tell you.
I have noticed some changes in my perspective and life as I approach the magic of 40. One of these “things” is that I finally care less about what others think than I did in the past.
This is a good thing, as I have learned there is such a thing as caring too much. My goals though, have also changed. Where I saw myself at 37… (when I was 28 or 30) is not where I am actually at!
That’s the problem with long-term planning and seeing the big picture… ifs the logistics change, resources change, or our lives change… the whole plan changes!
These days I’m trying a new approach. I have no idea if it is working yet, although it seems to be. Basically, I’m reaching lower, and getting closer to my plans. Instead of trying to see it all at once, and absorb my entire perspective, I’m digging into a specific point.
A good example is a simple one.
Instead of focusing on how our bed room needs paint, a new window, an additional layer of drywall with green glue for sound isolation (just imagine why…tee hee) and a better light fixture, I now …just put my laundry away.
Suddenly, the room looks neater. Yep. It’s amazing the detail I will go to just to avoid putting my clothes in a drawer. You ever time how long it takes to put your clothes away? I mean ALL your clothes. (Hey…they pile up). Well, it takes no longer than 15 minutes, and the room is suddenly neat, and more inspiring. 37 years to learn that taking five minutes each night to put my clothes away has more than one tangible benefit. The room is neater, the clothes are away, and I’m CLOSER TO THE NEXT GOAL.
This is how I’m trying to get things done. Stay focused on the little details for once, and the simpler, daily things.
I’ve still got plans though… and as the nature of this site is supposedly about my musical life, I’ll share what and where I’m at.
In short, I first recognized that I have a variety of musical goals, all (naturally) unrelated in intent and stylistic perspective!
I have been working at my guitar playing recently, trying to take my speed, touch and melodic perspective to a new level. So, I have arbitrarily decided that my agenda is to hit a new “high” as a guitarist, lyricist and drummer, and then develop and write an album of material that is heavy and metal in style.
As I told my wife, I’m starting to feel the “mellow” creep into my playing, so I’d best get my most immature “in concept” project finished before I don’t have the vibe to pull it off!
She said “so… you want to work on your most immature ideas? Is that what you’re saying? hmmm….” and then fades out in an almost paternal way.
Heh.
Hey. I don’t expect anyone to get it… but I am looking for a vibe and a sound that takes me back to what metal music does and did for me. If I have to explain it, you wouldn’t get it anyway. I know however, that there are quite a few people out there who do. If they dig it… then awesome. If not… well, I guess I suck then. heh.
So… that’s it… I’m working on the technique, developing my riffs, and a few songs, and when I’m done, whenever that may be, I’ll let you know, and then probably quickly turn my attention to the reggae/ska project I got in mind… or maybe finish off that last Bonafide album with Paul and Nick that we’re often talking about!
Until next time… which at this pace should be about a year…. later!